Heart Vs Mind
How many times have made a decision and then watched your heart and mind,fight?
I am so excited to meet my family..I haven’t seen my dad in nearly 2 years..but my heart is heavy..I am sad for leaving DH behind.Mind tells me that he is a grown up,well capable of taking care of himself.I have organised for someone to come and cook for him,once a week and he is going to be working most of the time.But,my heart worries,and tells me that he will be alone here for two months.I know I will talk to him,everyday,sometimes,many times,everyday.I know that we will talk more when I am away..but still,it won’t be easy,saying goodbye to him,at the airport.
This time,its harder for me to leave him for two reasons,one of them being,the Star of the blog and our lives.Aadya is very attached to her father.Everyone,feels that she needs me the most,which is true to a great extent..afterall she spends her entire day with me..She has spent very little time away from me,from birth..but he is her comfort person.She looks up to him,when she falls.She looks up to him,when she is hurt.She tells me,when she is sleepy..but she falls asleep when he is on her other side.He is Good Guy of her life-the one who gives her candy at the hint of an oncoming meltdown,unlike the bad momma..He is the one,who listens to her stories,over and over again..ooh-aahing in amazement(In my defence,I hear them all day long)This will be the first time,they are away from each other for such an extended period of time.He is worried that she will forget him(as if!)..but what if,she does?
The second reason is his Diabetes.It worries me…what else can i say..it does.My heart just swings from happy and light to heavy and foreboding..Kya Karu ?:(
Heart said,”Don’t blog tonite”..but mind said,”write what you are thinking..” I did ..:)