Monthly Archives: March 2013
This post may be all over the place..My heart is breaking as I type this..but I have to get it off my chest.I have been sick since Friday evening,almost 5 days now..On Saturday I literally got through the stall by gulping painkillers and by Saturday evening,I was sick to the extent of being delirious..I slept and slept,waking up to take pain-killers..and meds. Sometime in between,all that,I nursed Anan and put her to bed.Both the girls snuggled up with me..we went to bed.I didn’t want to feed her with so many meds in my body,so all through the night,whenever she asked for a feed,I just gave her water.
The next morning I was worse,and have more drugs in my body than food..so,I tried to keep her away..and she cried..and cried her little heart out.I held her,holding my tears back-she clung to me,crying her heart out.We dozed off most of the day just holding each other.
She still refused cow’s milk.But she ate her lunch and dinner properly.
Through out the day,she made me sit in our usual nursing spots and asked,for dudu..and every-time I told her dudu finished,her face fell.She then pointed at my face,cheeks,nose and asked,dudu? Gosh!She breaks my heart with her cuteness.
Today was day three of no feeding,she drank a little milk from her sippy cup today and I put snuggled up with her to put her to sleep. And since then,I can’t stop crying.. my baby is growing up..I want to nurse her one last time..just to see that happy content look on her face.I will so miss seeing her cheeks turn pink,after nursing..and just thinking about it,brings on fresh tears.
I wish she would stop asking ..I wish she would insist on being fed.. I wish I didn’t have to be sensible and just give into her..I wish..it wasn’t so hard.Last time round was bad..but it was good in the way that it was hard just for me,to let go..This time,its really really really hard..If I were to pick my hardest moment of motherhood,till date..it would be this,without a doubt.
Fingers crossed that..it gets easier..from here on..:(
This morning the resident toddler refused to get out of her car-seat.Just plain refused..so,Mumma had to bribe her way out..
Mumma-Anan come on,lets go inside baby..
Toddler- No! Mumma No!
Mumma- who wants to watch Doya(Dora) ?
Mumma- umm Who wants the iPad?
Toddler,thinks for a minute..then points her finger at me..’I-Kream?’ …
Oh well everybody deserves I-Kream for breakfast..every once in a while.. so,she’s sitting with an I-Kream cone,while I type this! Go on say it.. she has me tied to her little pinkie finger!! 😀
When February started,I thought I’d do a post a day..nope!didn’t happen.
Then came March,and again I thought,I’d do a post a day..nope!didn’t happen either. By evening,I am so drained and tired..I can’t even think straight.I have had to take naps at 4 PM on most evenings. I haven’t taken naps since Aadya was born..except the occasional ones,when I was pregnant with Ananya,and I was just too fatigued.
Anyway,all this tiredness had me worried.So,I got my blood-work done and sure enough,Vitamin D was low and the Dr. said along with that,I had a case of acute fatigue! My body was playing catch up..waking up all those times at night,staying up late browsing the internet and then waking up early for Aadi’s school..was taking its toll on me. So,Vit D supplements have been started..early bed-times have been ordered..don’t always happen..like tonight,its 10:50 and here I am writing this post.
Anyway,while we are catching up,I should update you on the happenings of my life..:)
A friend and I have signed up for a craft stall at a multi-cultural event.So a lot of crafting is taking place.
Speaking of crafting,I have been churning bookmarks after bookmarks for a custom order of 6 bookmarks.
Crafting and washing.LOL!yes you read it right! I have gone in a laundry overload..All the trips to the beach and the pool leave me with a extra laundry.That and when you have two style divas at home.. your washing baskets are never empty.So,I have been washing,drying,folding-a lot of clothes,over the last few days.
We’ve had two extremely hot weeks and finally a cool change has come in tonight..I am loving it..I’ll stop now..but not before I leave you with a pic of my cuties staying cool with mini-splits.
6 years back,I was heavily pregnant and frequenting the mom-to-be forums on various websites.On one such websites,I met another mom and she shared her blog with me. Until then I was writing pregnancy details in a diary and the idea of an online diary appealed to me.. little did I know that I was entering into a magical world of friendships,virtual hand-holding,mommy-wars,crafty inspirations,recipes and what not..
I have thoroughly enjoyed these 6 year.. there have been periods of anguish and I have moved urls so many times..LOL! and so many of you,loyally followed me around-Thank you,for not giving up on me..
Blogging,readers and bloggy-pals have shown me the light in my darkest days..I have shared pretty much everything here..That’s the way I am..I can’t go half way with anything..:) SD teases me that I have friends all over the world..and he isn’t wrong.. you all are my friends..you rejoice with me.. you shower my babies with love, you cheer for me.. you cheer me up with your kind words when I am down. Isn’t that what friends do?
I’ll love you and leave you with a huge Thank you…and a slice of Rainbow cake and links to older blog birthday posts.